Monthly Archives: May 2009

Tough day

3 years ago today, brians brother
Joey died diving into a lake. It’s a tough day for him and his family. I wish that I had met joey. I remember hearing stories about brian and joey growing up when brian and I first became friends. I remember that first summer at SBP watching brian as he was grieving and leading students all at the same time. That summer he became so much more than the goofy silly little brother type I had also pictured him. His character was becoming so attractive to me. I fell in love with him then. The past 3 years have been difficult for brian and his family. I can’t imagine the pain of losing a son/brother. I wish I met joey so I could share in the happy memories. Although brian doesn’t talk about it often, I know he thinks about joey a lot. So, I’m praying for my love & his family today.


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Decision made = relief

So we have officially made a decision about what the Lord has for us next year. A few weeks ago, we were approached with the opportunity to teach ESL in south Korea for 12 months. Originally, we thot that it was a great idea! We would get to travel together and save $$ to pay off school loans. However, the more we learned about the school and our responsibilities there, our excitment dwindled. The expected 10.5 hour days of teaching 5 days a week seemed too much. So, after seeking counsel from people we love and respect, we have
decided that although it would have been a wonderful adventure, it would be more prudent for us to spend another 8 months or so working hard to pay off debt while volunteering with CO and then start the process of possibly going on staff. I love having the decision made because I feel releaved.. And that is a conformation to me 😉 also… I love that we have a goal and a timeline to achieve that goal. I am so excited to see what the Lord has in store for us!!!

In other news, my best friend from growing up is having a lil girl in July! Little Halley Jane 😉 I thoroughly enjoyed buying some little newborn dresses at target today. Although brian often accuses me of it, I never really have baby fever- just baby clothes/shoes fever… With the occasional symptoms of pointing out every cute prego lady. But I don’t think I’m alone in this disease 😉 I can DEFINATELY hold off for a few more years (lord willing) especially after seeing pics of some friends who had babies last week… They look so tired! So yeah, loads of time in that department.

I am so excited for this summer and blog stalking all you at SBP & India!!!


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The other night brian and I were snuggling as we watched a sermon by mark driscoll from the peasant princess series (so super great! ESPECIALLY if married or engaged). Anyways, when it was over, we closed the computer and went to sleep. The next morning brian opened the laptop to pay some bills and the only thing that showed in the screen was a file folder with a frowny face. That’s bad news bears! We took it in and the harddrive had crashed. We have tried almost everything to get the info back, but alas nothing has been successful 😦 what makes me most sad is the pictures I lost. I have some on facebook, but the quality is really bad when you print them. No more sbp pix. No first date pix. No goofy dating pix or engagement pix. No trip to Europe pix. No honeymoon pix. No first Christmas pix. So many fun memeories will no longer be aided with pictures. I was so sad at first, but brian reminded how blessed we are to even have done those things to have the memories! So we are going to try to recreate some just for fun… Like swing dancing on the night be asked me to be his girlfriend. Or our first date salsa dancing? Maybe we can even visit sbp this summer and relive memories there? We’ve even talked about going back to Mexico for our 1 year anniversary… Let’s just hope swine flu is done ;). So all that to say that I am glad I have gotten to spend the past few years with brian more than I liked having pictures of it. I love you bluejay!!!

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After a coffee date with Maddy yesterday, I discovered that it is easier for me to get excited about someone elses adventure in the future more than my own possible excursion. Why? Because I lack faith. I don’t trust that Jesus can lead me into the unknown without the comforts that I love. I don’t trust that I can grow in foreign situation-even tho I have in the past. I know mads will grow so much in NYC and have a blast… Why do I wonder whether or not I will?

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